[Verse 1: big O]
Its only 12:30, been like 10 hours since I told myself Id be going cold turkey (but I)
Fold early, cuz everytime I try to raise the blinds in my life, my hands seldom hold sturdy (why?)
This whole journey, it got me so worried (wordy)
Run on like my sentences (and beg the lord mercy!)
Yes I am an attorney, but honestly, I don’t know which game I’m playin’ in right now is really more dirty, (scratch that)
Matter of fact (wattup?) let's scratch the whole canvas (word)
And let me get back, to how I been tryna’ rap, about these habits
See, I’m tryna’ be candid, n catch myself red handed
Avoidin’ a poisonous end, you only catch that if you read hamlet (woah)
Its got me thinking man, god dammit everyday
I’m sorry lord, don’t mean, to take your name in vain (you did)
Its so hard to stay straight, n live a life that’s drama free
When I’m working like a slave, in this fucked up economy
Tryna’ put food on my plate, I been workin’ on my quantity
Without ever losing sight of where I am and where I wanna be
If I ever go to hell, please, just let me rhyme n speak
Or keep me near heaven, that place under momma’s feet (preach)
[Hook: big O]
I sit at night and think n write
Wonder where we go, when we ain’t livin’ life
Feel my head spin out of control
So I get on the mic, n try to grab a hold (listen)
Of all the dreams from my past
I been giving, I ain’t getting’ no cash
That ain’t ever gon’ change who I try to be
Cuz it ain’t about the fame, man I rhyme for free (listen)
[Verse 2: big O]
(laugh out loud) "What you think? you singing now?"
Here he come, once again, it’s that nigga doubt
“You suck dawg, please, just give it up, with this rapping shit”
Blasphemous! What you think? All of this just an accident?
You don’t know the half of it! I swear to god I have to spit
I wouldn’t have a talent like this to not be fucking passionate!
So many damn times, I almost thought myself to death
Overthinking every rhyme, I swear I stop myself from rest
As I lay in bed at night, my head lost in fog and mist
And this voice called doubt, yeah, he get to talkin’ shit! Like
“You ain’t goin’ nowhere”
But then an echo in the night, whispers to me, like, “yo O, do not let go of this fight!”
So as long as it takes, I swear I’ll sit and waste n wait
Declare my faith up on a snare n bass, and then I’ll share the taste
Of all the things I’m scared to face, pain and all mistakes I make
Too much damn thinking, man I swear I’m just prepared to break
(break)
Damn, a hungry young attorney, try’na learn to settle
Ain’t content with his life, cuz he always feelin’ heckled
Not by you, not by anyone else, but his own damn self
By a voice living in his head, “This kid need some damn help!”
So strap me down, hold me down, I swear Ill kick n fight
And share my sounds til’ I’m in the ground, beg for another night
To do what I hate, yet love, I been rhymin’ since youth
A fucking crazy kid with a dream with his mind on the loose (shoot)
[Hook: big O]
I sit at night and think n write
Wonder where we go, when we ain’t livin’ life
Feel my head spin out of control
So I get on the mic, n try to grab a hold (listen)
Of all the dreams from my past
I been giving, I ain’t getting’ no cash
That ain’t ever gon’ change who I try to be
Cuz it ain’t about the fame, man I rhyme for free (listen)
