College Smart - Untitled [c. 2014] [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Hook: College Smart]
Today I planned my suicide
Got into my newest ride
Bridge over troubled water
I slid into the border
(Right? x2)

[Verse: College Smart]
Last night I made my momma cry
Tears rolling from her eyes
She lit another cigarette
As I continued with the dishes and
She came in to eat her chicken breast
I told I was leaving, wouldn’t be out long
Woke up in the morning and she had gone
Left a note saying, “Thanks for everything”
Somewhere along the way I’ve lost myself
So many problems in my life that I done caused myself
Half the times I’m pissed off I’ve pissed off myself
Wonder if I’d be better off if I just offed myself
That’s the reason I don’t open my mouth
The same reason I don’t finish this album
Every time I rap it seems I let another skeleton out
And now I’m pretty sure I’m better without them
But people say I’ve been hiding too long
Yet I’m crying while I’m writing these songs
Me being honest on these records
Starts problems with my exes
But all that matters is they singing along (right?)
So do that dance, do that dance, do it
Go on little puppet go on do that dance
They won’t let you live it down if you don’t do that dance
And make a song that won’t let down fans
(Right? x2)

[Hook: College Smart]
Today I planned my suicide
Got into my newest ride
Bridge over troubled water
I slid into the border

[Verse: College Smart]
Ayo my dude
I don’t always agree with you or your wifey
And I ain’t trying to make you just like me
But I love you both
Only friend who had my back through the worst
And I can’t think about you laid in a hearse
So I’m just trying to let you know, you need a lifestyle change
Want us to kick it ‘til a ripe old age, you feel me?
What goes through the mind of a Marvin Gaye?
Who earns fame at a time he should walk away
Who doesn’t leave his home without a bulletproof vest on
Then takes a bullet in the chest by his own name
Maybe that’s how he planned it
Maybe that was the only way
Marvin Gay would kill Marvin Gaye
Do we live for happiness or do we live for perfection?
People keep telling me I need to talk to a reverend
I barely talk to my mom, I ain't talking to no god
And I ain’t talking to no father when I barely call my father
Even though I know he’s lonely
These days come and go too fast for me
I wrote my first song in a year and I felt guilty
Could’ve spent that time with someone I should go see
Wanna know how I feel? Just go and listen to my songs
They all started as love poems
Can somebody please tell my girl I love her?
Cause lately she’s found it hard to take my word
Baby, I’m sorry, but I can’t tell you all my secrets
I’m not ready for you to think of me different
But you have my heart; only one I trust to keep it
But I know you just wanted me there for you
I’m sorry I couldn't see it
I’m sorry I couldn't see it
I’m so sorry I couldn't see it
I’m sorry I couldn't see it again
(Right?)

[Hook: College Smart]
Today I planned my suicide
Got into my newest ride
Bridge over troubled water
I slid into the border