Detox - Broken Fiend [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1]
Uh, started off from a very young age
After elementary I entered in the dark phase
Of addiction, infliction on my psyche
Young kid entering a grown man fight
Didn’t know how to masturbate, all self-taught
Once I found out I just couldn’t stop
I didn’t go a day without doing it
Thought that I could quit whenever I wanted
Had no clue of what I got myself into
I’m beyond any help I can’t be rescued
There was a time when I tried to stop
Yeah, it lasted two weeks and then I lost
Now my body, mind, and health has taken its toll
From my hormones that I couldn’t control
Man, I’m so jacked up, I’m so wrecked
I’m slowly seeing every women as objects
Brain in the gutter I’m being so perverted
Any hope of overcoming is so uncertain
Didn’t watch porn but searched images online
Groping over anything that I could find
Watched ecchi and hentai as a replacement
Got my mind twisted anime porn so explicit
Eyes filled with lust, I am a slave
Each day with no hesitation I feel so ashamed
Scrolling through pictures my eyes are an awe
My mind is so scarred from the things that I saw
Touching, rubbing, stroking, squirting, and spilling
Then I regain my conscience with a hangover feeling
I hate it, I hate myself, I feel so awful
Depressed over my sins, I feel so miserable
Man I feel so weak I couldn’t last a week
Busy doing my usual habits under the sheets
I don’t want to lose the pleasure in the future
I want the pleasure with my wife not with pictures
Wondering if my little brother is doing it too
I don’t want him to go through the things I’ve been through

[Verse 2]
Yeah, I got a problem with daydreaming
Living in the stories and books that I’ve been reading
I’m high off of my castles in the sky
A place where I can fly, a place where I can’t die
Utopian king I’m a god in my dreams
Making every scene to be whatever that I wanna see
Multiple lives I’m whoever that I wanna be
But in the end I’m just caught up in my fantasies
Time moves on, I’m wasting my life away
I pray that this go away cause later on I will pay
I’m healthy and ideal in my sea of thoughts
But I know here in the real world I slowly rot
If life gets hard I just imagine something better
Numbing my pain so I can make it through the weather
But all the hard times are gonna come back
If I don’t find a way to bring my presence back fast
Daily injection, I’m shooting up like a fiend
I’m suffocating from my caged mind I can’t breathe
I can feel myself fading from reality
It seems as though I can’t let go of this addiction so easily

[Verse 3]
I’m still restrained from all these addictions
I don’t see any end to these eternal afflictions
I’m going cray, I need myself a rehab
Not my first time, yeah you know that I would be back
How do I plan to detoxify other people
If I can’t even detoxify myself
God I really need help against my troubles
It seems as though these problems are more than I can handle