Detox - Worries [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1]
Yeah I’ve got so much to worry
Yet I’m still tryna do things through me
Do me not thee that’s the current case
If this keeps up I’ll never finish the race
The passion of music has been lost
My life, body, and friends are the entire cost
I don’t think I will make it I’m so scared
My mind and heart ain’t even prepared
I still have so many dreams to fulfill
Still so many willing desires to fulfill
But right now my life is a bit too still
Time moves on and I’m just too chill
For real I need to step up to the plate
Or else I might end up with a worse fate
State of mind is right now so out of it
I’m not even up to the challenge to spit
Hit the stage and I’m nervous and afraid
I don’t do shows but then how do I get paid
I ain’t even doing well in my studies
Not even fulfilling my God planned duty
Selfish ambition is what I’m carrying out
But I don’t wanna continue on this route
I’ve been so mediocre at everything
Yet I also wanna be so many things
So many people I want to collaborate with
But how in the world do I get them to notice
Better yet how do I even establish a career
I’m losing control, losing things I hold dear
Sometimes I even feel like restarting
My whole life again so I can be rethinking
I’m tired of malice and hate filled lyrics
Yeah I want to start giving healing lyrics
What am I good for I don’t really know
I’m tired of my same old grind and flow
But this is what happens when I get it on my own
Sitting atop on this dark cursed throne
Aishida league we’ve all had a dark past
And still in the future all we can see is last
Uh, I’m still wishing instead of praying
My bond with the Lord is slowly fading
So is my will of fire and musical power
Gaining age and losing youth every hour
I look up and all I see are dark clouds
Rain all day no ray of sun to be found
I’ve got no skills and no birth talents
I just work hard but that won’t make things happen
And I’m going on about still with burdens
Addictions still spilling and I’m not urgent
My heart is filled with hate I’m so bitter
I’m running down, I’m not a clean liver
Artist no, freestyler no, composer no
Producer no, songwriter no, author no

[Verse 2]
I’m gonna ask again what am I good for?
I’m bored from this life and got a closed door
My pictures, art, lyrics and music is so cliché
I’m still mad even though my sins have been paid
I’m not even sure what I’m rambling about
Just a bunch of stuff that I need to let out
I’m just super scared that I won’t make it
I’m just so anxious about the future I’m a lose it
I’ve got so many wishes and desires to fulfill
So many artists that I want to work with still
I’m afraid that I won’t ever change my attitude
Away from this hate and bitter type of dude