Elusive - Mistakes [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Hook: John Andrew]
They tell me my condition is incurable..
They tell me that I need to take these drugs, to numb the pain..
It's days like this, I just wish that I could rewrite my history..
But I must live with my mistakes..

[Verse 1: Elusive]
I'm on my own, and all I hear is rain
All I wanted was, someone to feel this pain
Headed down the highway, eyes-closed, screaming
I guess just being alive is driving me insane
I think the past is catching up to me
It's lost meaning, the demons have corrupted me
And now I dug myself a hole, in mind control
You took my soul, so tell me what else could you want from me
I'm lying though, like it's easier
To hide this side of me, my schizophrenia
But if I'm psycho, I'll ride a bicycle
Across the night sky, while screaming fuck the media
And I am sorry if I offended
They tell me, that my mind needs to be mended
Shocked that I ain't seen a doctor in a long while
I smile and say that I'm exactly how God intended, what?

[Hook]

[Verse 2: Elusive]
I'm in a padded room, with iron locks
I killed myself back in '89, rewind the clocks
Cause it was homicide, and I was cast aside
By society, guess I'm a paradox
Is it funny, or am I amusing?
The funny thing is, this is my delusion
And it's funny that I'm sitting here alone
Cause this is all just my own illusion
And I do it for my own amusement
Like shit stinks I think I need a new scent
Or a noose sent, so I can hang myself
Next time I watch the news and wonder the fuck the news went
But I look at life like, what a ride
From the pain to the love, until it fucking died
And you couldn't see the whole picture
Cause every True Love Story had another side, uh..

[Hook]

[Verse 3: Elusive]
Can you hear me? I'm calling you
This time I'm going all in, forgetting all I knew
But there's a hole where my heart was
I guess it must be the love I think I fall into
But it's your arms - my only salvation
I'm stuck in time, my life's an animation
How can I let go of the past? I need your help
Since I couldn't even pass my self-evaluation
My mind ain't ever being mended
And you shouldn't take it like a side-note
Now the Sleepless Dream for me, had ended
Cause When I'm Gone started off as a suicide note
But you love my impurity
You love that I don't wanna reach maturity
I guess you love my sickness, but it inflicts us
I should have known that your affection was the cure to me..

[Hook]