[Verse 1: Elusive]
It's the little things, that leave a scar
Broken dreams, no memories of me and uh
I ain't even know her name now - we're strangers
But I guess the changes, make us who we are
It's her I miss though, so no disagreeing
But by now, I just can't tell who I'm seeing
All I see is light, I'm sick of fleeing, so I'll fight
Cause the only thing I wanna be, is a human being
When it's just you and me and, I ain't gotta rhyme
I'mma tell you what I'm gonna find
Till I see a line, in the sands of time
This chance is mine, I wouldn't miss it, even if I was colour blind
But I'm not, so I see
With perfect vision, and without a memory
Don't you get it? This is me, so you've gotta know it's true
Cause the only thing I've ever shown to you, was honesty
But you won't agree, it must be another
Future dispute, like why'd I even bother?
I guess the only one I hate is myself though
Cause even now I know I still love her..
And I'm feeling like a dove
Cause the only place I'm flying is above
I mean I'm all in, now I have stopped stalling
We'd fallen out, but this time, I am in love
And I know it must be real
Cause you were patient enough, to help heal
All the wounds, of everything I'd been through
So now I can begin new, and tell you, how I feel
Like it's what I know you wanna hear
But me? I only want her here
With my eyes closed, I can see her, you ain't got no idea
What it's like, when you know, what you want is just gonna disappear
Soon as you start to get close
Feels like I'm haunted by a ghost
But the scariest thing about this is
You will always be the one I wanted most..
Like each day is just another date
And I'm just counting down the seconds, cause they correlate
But I don't wanna wait, until I see your face
For me to tell you, that I'm not the only one I hate
Cause now the love is not the same
Didn't know what you became, I couldn't even say your name
Kept it hidden like your shame, and now there's not a flame
There's a fire - so why are you still tryna play this game?
It's insane, cause I ain't jealous, I am the opposite
But you just keep this routine up, so what if there was
Someone else that's bothered by all of it?
Cause I ain't falling for it, but I'll bet you somebody has had enough of it
So you can keep playing, though I won't play along
I can't write what's right, when you just made it wrong
And I ain't as strong, as I was
Cause now the only thing I'm glad of, is that you're gone..
.. That's another lie
Like I'll be still here waiting for you to come back to me until I fucking die
Until I'm gone, I'mma wander alone in the darkness
Tryna find the light so I don't wonder why
You and I are enemies
But if I keep on chasing, I know I'm just erasing the memories
So this is me, setting free, I'm letting go of everything
And you ain't seen me sweating till this energy
Has been released, to you I'm speaking
This is who I've become, I ain't peaking - the only thing that I'm seeking is relief
My heart skips a beat, promises I used to keep
I'm sick of this abuse, cause if I ain't losing you, I'm losing sleep
But without you I'm weak, you give me power
So I think about you, every single hour, of the week
Even though it's like we never speak - I see your face
But it hurts cause I know I can't replace what's unique..
I wanna be there when you're down
I want to be the person that you think of when there ain't nobody else around
But I'm just feeling like a clown
I'mma martyr, and after the laughter I'll never hear another sound..
Yet still I'm blessed with the imagery
The memories of everything that you ever said to me
Like I don't need to put it in a simile, it's been a long adventure
But I knew you'd come back for me eventually
To hear me play for you this symphony
But I don't wanna risk winning, even if if it means I'm showing sympathy
Cause God's got it in for me, and I live in infamy
So I'm just thankful for everything that you did for me..
