[Intro]
DMC, we have a mid-thirties male found down, unresponsive
Possible overdose, substance unknown, pulse is 60 and thready
Respiration's eight, he's intubated and we're baggin' him now
BP, 90 over palp, patient is cool, pale, and diaphoretic
Has aspirated, GSC is 3, we'll update en route, ETA, ten minutes
[Verse 1]
As I fall deeper into a manic state
I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait
Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate
Start off with the night well like, I think I'll just have a taste
Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate
To a harder prescription drug called Valium like, yeah that's great
I go to just take one and I end up like having eight
Now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate
Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak
And you'd think that with all I have at stake
Look at my daughter's face
"Mommy, something is wrong with Dad I think
He's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me
Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me
And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos
And he just fell asleep in his car eating 3 Musketeers in the rear seat"
[Hook]
Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
Feels like I been down this road before
So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
As soon as I go home and close the door
Kinda feels like déjà vu
I wanna get away from this place I do
But I can't and I won't
Say I try, but I know that's a lie
Cause I don't and why I just don't know
[Verse 2]
"Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer?"
That's the devil in my ear
I've been sober a fuckin' year
And that fucker still talks to me he's all I can fuckin' hear
"Marshall, come on we'll watch the game, it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers"
And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half buzzed
For half of the time, who's the mastermind behind that little line
With that kind of rationale man I got half a mind
To have another half of glass of wine, sound asinine
Yeah I know, but I never had no problem with alcohol
Ouch, look out for the wall, aim for the couch - I'm 'bout to fall
I missed the couch and down I go lookin' like a bouncy ball
Shit musta knocked me out cause I ain't feel the ground at all
Wow, what the fuck happened last night, where am I
Man, fuck am I hungover and goddamn I
Got a headache, shit half a Vicodin, why can't I
All systems ready for take off, please stand by
[Hook]
[Verse 3]
So I take a Vicodin, splash it hits my stomach then, ahhhh
Couple of weeks go by it ain't even like I'm gettin' high
Now I need it just not to feel sick, yeah I'm gettin' by
Wouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn't die
Oh yeah, there's an excuse, you lose Proof so you use
There's new rules, it's cool if it's helpin' you to get through
It's twelve noon, ain't no harm in self inducin' a snooze
What else is new, fuck it what would Elvis do in your shoes
Now here I am three months later, full-blown relapse
Just get high until the kids get home from school, holmes, relax
And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac
I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take three naps
Just to be able to function throughout the day, let's see
That's an Ambien each nap, how many Valium, three
And that will average out to about one good hour's sleep
Ok so now ya, see, the reason how come, he
Has taken four years to just put out an album, B
See me and you we almost had the same outcome, Heath
Cause that Christmas you know the whole pneumonia thing?
It was bologna, was it the methadone ya think?
Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos
Your VCR tape cases, with your Ambien CR
Great places to hide 'em, ain't it? So you can lie to Hailie
I'm goin' beddy bye Whitney baby, good night Alaina
Go in the room and shut the bedroom door and wake up in an ambulance
They said they found me on the bathroom floor, damn
[Hook]
