Hady Abou Nader - If life is the poison so suicide is the cure [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

In my head
I wish death
I am feeling like I am a person so everybody hates me
Because I am a piece of shit
And I am sick
Of people that repeat that I am an idiot
Well I am a human so
I cry and I try
I lie and I smile
I love
And I solve
Many problems that many others can't
I do my best
But I know that I am not better than the rest
And teachers puts all on me
If anything bad
Happens in class
But now
I am back
With my rap
I am the broken boy
Who will not stop rapping
I hide my tears behind a fake smile
That is always on my face
The story of my life hurts me
And what is future ?
Is it a stupid thing that means my destruction?
Well in the future
I may do suicide
I hate myself like no one else does
Friends or foes don't trust anyone they will all betray you one day
But I don't care about my stupid life anymore
You can shoot me in the head and kill me
I am already dead
Dead mentally
But I wish that in two days I will also be dead physicly
My heart that is broken
Is aching me right now
I don't have a question
But I have got questions
Why I can't be liked?
Why I can"t be loved?
Why everybody judge me like I am a bad person?
Why they are wishing I die?
Please give me the answers
Everybody like to see me cry
So I am not afraid of crying if the answers hurt me
If I cry
I am sure
You will smile
And will try
To hide it
And then you will come and tell me
"stop crying"
And then I will tell you
"stop lying you are smiling You don't care about me If I die you will go and dance on my tomb can you prove me wrong"
As I write this song
Tell me that you hate me
Look in my ugly face
In my ugly eyes
I will care
But I will hide my tears
And when I will go back home
I will cry
As I sit on my bed
Wishing that my red blood get out of my body
Because if this happens
I will die
So everybody
Will be happy
You know what?
Fuck every bitch on this earth
Fuck the fuckers
Fuck the suckers
Fuck this earth
Fuck the planets
Fuck everything that is alive
Of course there is some exeptions
But there is too many bitches alive
And if this is what they want
If this is what every bitch on this earth wants
I have no problem of being killed
No one likes me
I cannot lie to myself cause if I could
I would
Have do it A long time ago
I hate myself because I am a stupid boy
That have been hated too many times
My heart was broken
Life is a bitch
Who does nothing but hurts me
They judge even thought they have never felt what I have felt
They can all sue me but they are the cause of me
I took a minute
To think about my life
And I have cried
My life hurted me so much
That if I think about it at night I can no longer sleep
My heart is broken
I am a victim of a killer named life
I am the prey of a thing named suicide
If I find a gun
What I will need is one bullet
I will put the fucking gun in my head,cock it
Die and go to hell
I am suffering
The hardest feeling is when you feel like you are not from this earth
I feel this way
Because I have been rejected by everybody
I have lost my mind
And I have sell my soul
And now I can no longer get them back
What I want is to escape from this fucking earth
In my mind there is suicidal thoughts
You want to judge me
Judge me
But just know that you don't know what the fuck I have been throught
You bully me for fun
I wish I die
Not only because of that
But because no one likes me
Everybody hates me
I am tired of being who I am
I am tired of haters
I am tired of being hurt
I am tired of myself
I am tired of living
I am tired of life
Because I am broke
And I am a fucking joke
When I will die
They will say that I was a good person for them
But this is nothing but a lie
Nothing is right for me
Because I can't find the light
You can no more say to me
That you like me
And if I can die right now
I won't say no
Because it is the best thing that can happen
This is my friends wish
This is my wish
This is a world wish
I am asking myself right now
What is the poison? And what is the cure?
I don't know but what I know is that I am:
"hated,bullied,rejected,betrayed,damned,mentally killed,mentally sick,hurt,broke...."
I have nothing to be proud of
And certainly not love
And come to think about it
If life is the poison so suicide is the cure
And I am sure of that