Illu$trious - Beyond Illusion [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

(Verse 1)
You don't even know my true colours like some dinosaurs/
No one having faith in me like "Watchu grinding for"/
Things that used to bring me life now have me dying more/
The crowns never safe so watch out as I'm eying yours/
They sleeping on me, grieving on me, beefing on me, leaving on me/
Demons got me, creeping on me, breathing on me, leaching on me/
Greeting homies, bleeding for he, but all he ever did was leave on me/
And I'm only 15 years young so how come life isn't ever easy on me/
Started writing songs instead of death notes/
Learned that life could changed because it's not a set stone/
I'm pissed at love because every single frickin' day she doubts/
So I'm crying all these nights wondering if she even cares about me/
Parent mad at me because I'm in the studio day and night/
But I only do it because music makes it harder hating life/
She used to make me happy, he used to make me happy/
But now demons in my head have me asking what the hell is "Happy"?/

(Verse 2)
Now these Natives supporting me just because of my race/
People hating me because of the complexion of my face/
I'm so hungry at the moment, just give me a taste/
They said that they loved me so what's with all of the hate?/
Young kid, that's done some dumb shit/
Nothing turned to some one up shit/
Graveyard shift, made hard hits/
Stay guarded, cause I've made hard shifts/
Sick of these guys saying that they got me/
Because they joined right in when everybody mocked me/
Can't breath, can't see, can't eat but no matter what happens any time I still can't leave/
Staying trill and speaking of the things that made me/
Because I come to learn I love music more than Em loves Haley/
I don't need to be real to you cause I'm real to myself/
I only did this music so I can try to start healing myself/

(Verse 3)
I'm about to tear my heart out because I hear them under floors/
I guess I never should have gave you space like an underscore/
I took some pills, you did the same/
Except I woke up somewhat damaged and you didn't wake up at all on the next day/
You called me crying and left a voicemail on my phone/
But, I was being selfish and had some plans of my own/
Caught in the past while youtried to being me to the future/
And now because of that you're not alive to see the future/
You did same as others and pulled the plug on yourself/
I guess I should've stopped being concerned about me and watched out for your health/
I'm sorry that I wasn't there when everything faded into black/
So, I won't be mad when you're up there never watching my back/
And I can't give up because of that promise that I made you/
And I think I owe it to you because I wasn't there to save you/