Jewlz - Confessions [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

Have you ever felt so alone, in a room full of people that just admire you? /
It's overwhelming to see the people all lie to you /
I suck it up for the fact that I have to keep it movin' /
And for my reasons, happiness ain't why I pursue it /
I sit alone in my bedroom and wonder what I'm doin' /
I think about the fans I'm gaining but the friends I'm losin' /
I push away the people tryna get close to me /
And try to reel in all the people who don't even know me /
I have issues with trust, can someone please show me? /
How to do it the right way, I'm fuckin' lonely /
Never forget none of the words that she ever told me /
Why everybody wanna hug me but nobody holds me? /
I've lost a part of me to someone that I used to hate /
It reminds me of the music that we used to make /
Ironically I ended up not even bothered by it /
Happiness was really close it was just hard to find it /
Yeah, and to the girl that was a part of me /
Thank you for everything but it's time you grew a part from me /
I thought that everything we've ever been through /
Would help you understand, but none of it don't mean shit to you /
For that, I bid you adieu /
Just remember all our shit together, I been through it too /
Maybe life isn't as bad as it seems /
Cause a nightmare eventually turns into a dream /
In this rap game there's only one policy /
Aim for the stars, and I never took astrology /
Accept no apology, so much stress on top of me /
Don't care bout what you do with them just please get it far from me /
Since I was a kid, I seen my own death /
No stress, lost in an alley, see my own breath /
Mentally I'm lost, in my heart I'm feelin' hopeless /
See my murderer just getting closer with the process /
After everything I've learned /
What I thought was spittin' fire I ended up getting burned /
This music would cause me drama and shit that I didn't need /
I'm starin' into the mirror and I don't know what I see /
Confusion is a step into depression /
You know it when you even start to question your reflection /
I would desire attention and for affection /
Until I say my confessions I'll never see my progression /
You talk a lot but I don't understand your sentence /
So I don't follow you, even if you try to mention /
My name, you would keep it in your conversations /
If we're really a team, where is the cooperation? /
I live in Obama's Nation /
People laughin' at me cause I'm an obamanation /
No longer racin' for people who aren't chasin' /
Their dreams, cause a nightmare is only what they're facin' /
Been betrayed so many times I'm not a quitter /
Cause revenge is only sweet if they betrayal tasted bitter /
Fuck 'em all, none of 'em are friends to me /
An old friend still can turn into your newest enemy /
What the fuck you tellin' me? I ain't even listenin' /
The truth hurts, it can leave the human heart cripplin' /
The fact you was a long time friend /
Told me what you're tryna start, I should really try to end /
But to be honest you was a part of my game /
To show me what I tell you, what you tell her, is it the same? /
I'm paranoid of the people I even trust now /
Used to give a fuck, but I don't give a fuck now /
I never take my eyes off a bastard /
Cause everyone will stab you only if you're facing backwards /
And 2 people I know, they're the best wit it /
I'll take the knife out of my back, stab ya chest wit it /
Cause I don't need to betray you if I don't like you /
You should worry bout what I'm doin', not what I might do /
My trust is something easily abused /
Cause it's hard to gain, and very easy to lose /
But your betrayal's not what I predicted /
They told me stay away from you, but I had resisted /
A natural emotion lasts only 12 minutes /
So that means that my depression is mostly self-inflicted /
After 12 minutes, how you feel is what you wanna feel /
Depression is my happiness, I just try to keep it real /
I go to sleep every night cryin' my eyes out /
Wondering when the fuck all the pain will ever die out /
The eyes are the windows to the soul /
So I always make sure that I keep my blinds closed /
If I should really die /
I'll be lookin' down from Heaven watchin' my funeral just to see who'd really cry /
I'm glad y'all can witness greatness before the final stages /
Life is a book I'm too scared to turn the pages /
A dream is a wish that your heart makes /
And a nightmare's the evil when your heart breaks /
Been walkin' for too long in this dark place /
And I never win, whenever I feel my heart /
Always ended last in the hearts of many /
But my music landed great in the hearts of plenty /
Lord tell me, all this pain that you send me /
Lemme know if all of my struggles will really help me /
In the future, I been abused to the /
Point that I don't know where is my sanity, I'm after peace /
I treat all of my lyrics like a masterpiece /
It's sad to see, somebody mad as me /
Walkin' around livin' a life I should be grateful for /
I look at life and say "it's them on why I hate you for!" /
The demons in my dreams are chasin' after me /
They follow me when I wake up I see 'em in reality /
They ask me if I'm okay /
I really don't want your condolence /
I'm acting like I'm okay, don't interrupt my performance /