Jinzo - Dear Diary [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1: Jinzo]
Dear diary, I been thinking a lot, homicidal thoughts
Suicidal tendency's everything gets the best of me
Here I sit again, just reminiscing bout the past
Trying to cleanse the bad that's trapped inside of me
Schizophrenic acts, but the facts remains
That I'm insane, it's all in my brain
I remind myself it's not there, but I feel it, and I see it
And there's no fucking higher power but me, all I need is me
I prey to myself, I talk to myself
Jinzo's the man with the plan, I grab the razor from my shelf
I cut, and I slice
I think about my enemies, I'll destroy them at any price
Surprise, I'm fucking bleeding out again
To hell with it though I goddamn like it, the blood's fun to play with
I have a different look on life
Dear Diary, I'm not crazy, I just have an open mind

[Hook: Jinzo]
There is no god, there's only me
My insanity consumes me, my sanity's detached
I crawl from the shadows, will all the pain stop
Clawing at the fiery ground, thinking outside the box
Trials, and tribulations, why the fuck am I damned
If I'm going down I'm pulling you with me, and that's just how I am
Another day, I bow my head down in shame
Dear diary, why did it have to be this way

[Verse 2: The Fi3nd]
Staring down at my desk at pages drenched in blood
I used to write for fun now I vent what I suffer from
A combination of my past present situation
Got me stressing feeling out of range bitch no reception
Disconnected, so alone and afraid
That my daughter will grow up to hate me someday
Anyway I can't take or fathom the shame
Of what I've become but I've caused this pain
I'm insane to think I could let it all go
To throw it away and fucking lose control
I leave these entries in a book though they scribbled in blood
To let my baby girl know how much I love
Her, she my world, the light in my life
Many nights I cry thinking bout leaving her behind
Steady stressing second guessing
Whether I should die, than be alive and hold her back in life

[Hook 2x: Jinzo]
There is no god, there's only me
My insanity consumes me, my sanity's detached
I crawl from the shadows, will all the pain stop
Clawing at the fiery ground, thinking outside the box
Trials, and tribulations, why the fuck am I damned
If I'm going down I'm pulling you with me, and that's just how I am
Another day, I bow my head down in shame
Dear diary, why did it have to be this way