Kon'science - Bigger Picture [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

Dear Mama

I'm not tryna be rude
But damn another day we ordering Chinese food
Fuck , go to my homies house
Hear my stomach making noise
Hearing sirens from the boys
I got 5 dollars & a quarter
He offered me food but I ask for water
Ima bout to go cop a nick
So i can get high as shit
To get rid of these feelings
That I'm dealing with
But as soon as I come down
It's like there it is

(Negative Thoughts)
...like you can't get ride of me
You need something stronger
I know you love that Hennessy
Greasy chicken from Kennedys
Fuck this music shit nigga
You can't even rap
Nobody from the ville
Ever made to the map
Better off getting a gat
They didn't listen to Pac (R.I.P 2Pac)
You better fall back
Cause they splitting wigs for a stack
They'll never see the bigger picture
Thats how i like it nigga
Girls fucking up their future
For niggas that making figures
I even made Marvin father (R.I.P Marvin Gaye)
Pull the trigger nigga
You better look around
& get familiar
You tryna live your dreams
Ima make shit get realer

(Gotta Think Positive)

...I sat back thinking maybe I should quit
They want me to lose
But this life is a gift
So I'm not winning shit
Just tell it how it is
& go about my biz
Kushandbeatz is for the kids
Improve on how you live
Love is everything
Everything else fake
That's why I'm feeling great
Cause my heart never hate

The first to help you
Are the ones who knows
How it feels to fall down
So the first day I've been done
To take over with these sounds
From the underground

What should I do now?