Lucid - Introspection [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1: Lucid] I'm jammed up, trynna understand the
Pain that I gotta manage for Carter Alexander
Its damagin' cause damn it gets so cold when you all alone
Ain't nobody wanna talk til you pop, then they all callin yo phone
Am i supposed to feel ashamed? Cause i found my value
And im wonderin how you
Can vouch to a gain that'll doubt you, but i knew in time that it would amount to
A spot full of grace in the drops of the bass
Not gettin chased from these cops in my place..
Now im lost in a space that i can't get out of..
Position is doubtful
Gotta mouth full of inspiration, but I'm lost in these hits im makin
Am i flowin for strength and emotional guidance
Or is it for money, clothes and the diamonds, im stressed
Its hard to feel blessed.. my sons mothers a mess
Shes tweetin that personal shit, I think i need to get her a journal to vent
Cause she hurtin our kid
But i take the blame, cause i made mistakes
Took our trust and i threw it in garbage cause Lucid been poppin and raisin the stakes
So bitches appeal
And i wasn't ready so for that im sorry
But why in the fuck would i fight for someone who does nothin but harm me
She says that im nothin but a drunk and i love to go party
Sippin bacardi
But really im fuckin emotionally wrecked
Were causin a war like we entered the army
I live in a foggy place
Mommas always in my fathers face
Cause hes gone and wasted at a slot with change
This shits gotta change, i grab a few pillys and pop the pain
Yeah, uh, and the shit goes on and on
Trying to bond with the mom of my child
But I can't keep walking strong
Knights of Anger got my life in danger
Living off of a mic and a prayer
Blinded by the lights and the strangers
Fighting for soul's that are trying to refrain us
Smoking the pain away
No one to save the day
I drop and I pop while my flow just fades away
Y'all ain't ever gave support
You ain't ever walked in the J's I sport
You ain't ever took the time to promote these tracks
(Unintelligible)
So your halfway ass can kiss my ass
Hit it while I spit these raps
I took the time to get my focus set
Stuck to the roots with no regret
Tucked in my boots like an older vet
To hold my rep while I roll these meds
Me and pops at a loss for words
I'm always getting caught with her
Been tearing up my family
Fuck, it's offending me
If I ain't making it
Mess with the plan of me
I stay where the cameras be
This ain't no obvi