[Verse One: MikelWJ]
I’ve spent the last six years in a pit full of self pity
Mood shitty, but saw myself as clever and witty
I barely made it through school, and never once was i cool
So honestly it feels like all I did was act as the fool
I’m kind of shocked I survived, but loved the look in their eyes
After I showed them my paycheck, and all my views on the rise
Suddenly now I have friends, or a bunch of loose ends
But I don’t really give a fuck because I’m glad I’m a trend
This fights been raging inside, between my heart and my pride
While I just switch from sad to manic, wishing one of them died
My egos starting to show, Guess I allowed it to grow
But I’m a kid, and it’s still better than the times I feel low
I pick my friends out with care, no more than 5 or 6 pairs
And only those who think my time is as important as theirs
No one who brings my mood down, since I don’t need them around
And now I’m done playing the hero just to feel like a clown
[Chorus: Cryptic Wisdom]
My sweet escape, all the wounds that I have made
Are reminders of a time, a time in darker days
And now I can stand up proud
Look at me now, I can stand up proud
Look at me now
[Verse Two: MikelWJ]
I’m seeing much better days, now fifty shades of these grays
And I would say it makes me happy, but I’m stuck in a daze
My mind is cluttered with thought, things that I thought I forgot
Or things I tried to abandon to feel the feelings I sought
They say I only complain, and only mention my pain
But if I wasn’t doing this, I’d probably end up insane
But I found darkness is light, to those who walk without sight
Simply looking for some help to see the end of the night
So I’ll remain in the dark, hold up my lighter and spark
Since people come to me like moths when I speak from the heart
I found some beauty and peace, let serotonin increase
And I’ll be writing out these demons till they finally cease
Who needs a shrink to be sane? I’m just another dumb name
On the list of all the people they’ll be seeing that day
I just need pills and a drink, to help me learn not to think
Since If I keep that thinking up, I know I’ll end up extinct
[Chorus: Cryptic Wisdom]
My sweet escape, all the wounds that I have made
Are reminders of a time, a time in darker days
And now I can stand up proud
Look at me now, I can stand up proud
Look at me now
[Verse Three: MikelWJ]
My knees both buckled then broke, and I was lost in the smoke
I told myself it was a dream, but then I never awoke
And then the calm began to come when I heard angels that spoke
But now I’m looking at the scroll, and it’s just murder she wrote
I’m feeling lonely, that’s all, my run has slowed to a crawl
Since I’ve been stuck on a tightrope, and I fear I might fall
My safety net has been cut, and so there’s fear in my gut
Since if I fall, this will be my last attempt at the stunt
So I’ll change up my strut, to make my balance more perfect
Since my goal is at the end, and I was told it was worth it
I’m hearing people that cheer, unlike my “friends” that all jeer
And when I’m ever feeling lost, I found they all disappear
So I found love on the shelf, said I’m deserving of help
And if they don’t want to give it, then I’ll just do it myself
I smiled slightly and laughed, I said the past is the past
It didn’t fix all of my problems, but it helped me relax
Michael:
Hello?
Fan #1:
Is this the guy that made that Please Don’t cut song on Youtube?
Michael:
Uhh, yeah that was me. Why do you…
All in unison:
Oh my god! I can’t believe it’s you! You are, like seriously, my idol! You really saved my life!
Michael:
Oh… Well that was… Loud
Fan #1:
Hey Mikel! Could you write me a song? I love your music, I listen to it every single day!
Michael:
My name isn’t pronounced Mikel…
Fan #2:
I love your music more! Especially that one song about Anorexia! It is the best!
Michael:
Have you even heard any other songs of mine?
Fan #2:
Yeah! Part two was also amazing. Oh! And Please Don’t Cut. You don’t understand how much your music means to me
Michael:
You’re right, I don’t understand
Fan #3:
She forgot about Smile Little Princess! That song is so good, it always makes me feel better!
Michael:
I’m so glad that...
Fan #1:
So, can we like text or something. I’ll give you my number. You are my Idol and I’d love to get to know you a little bit more
Michael:
I’m not really that into giving out…
Fan #2:
I want it too!
Michael:
But I just said…
Fan #3:
Can I please have it too! It would absolutely make my life to be able to talk to you all the time
Michael:
All the time? That seems like...
Fan #1:
Really though, can you write me a song?
Fan #2:
Can you also write me one?
All three in unison:
Please Michael, write a song for me!
Michael:
Fine, fine. I’ll see what I can do. Now I have to go, I am working on some stuff
All three in unison:
Awhh, no. please stay
