Onemanband - Looking 4 [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse]
Tell me where I belong
Is it in the message of the music
As I'm writing this song
Do I have the will to use it
Even if I'm not strong
Conveying my feelings
So too you can tell me I'm wrong
Inadvertently hurtin my confidence
The more I choose to go on
But you tell me that it's all in my head
And the minute I wake up in bed one day it'll all be gone
But lately I've been feeling like Rick in the walking dead
I don't know how I managed to stay afloat this long
So tell me is the answer in a place that I haven't looked
Is it on the internet or from a page in a book
I wanna know where it went
But I'm tired of asking again
I'm tired having to find a new way to pay the next rent
I'm tired of talking about it that's why I choose not to vent
I've got trust in my abilities but only to an extent
If you understand what I'm saying then let me ask you this
Would you rather be happy and penniless or rich and depressed
Obtain everything you ever wanted, including the stress
Or live your life to the fullest despite the things you can't get
The importance of mine was to find what I thought I had missed
But for me it disappeared and failed to ever show up again
So I waited a day, a few months and then a year
I waited 2 more years and still it hasn't reappeared
3 more years followed and I began to fear
That what I was looking for was most likely no longer here

[Hook]
Tell me what is that you're looking for
I just need to know why you sound so low

[Verse 2]
Totaled my first car before I turned 21
That was the day I told myself I was finally done
Insurance rates through the roof
I don't know what to do
Told myself that I'm fucked as my self-hatred grew
The more I run out of luck, the more the pain will ensue
So I lie to myself despite all of the proof
I could write a book about the shit that I'm in
Sometimes I close my eyes and fantasize
What life was like back when I was ten
I wish I could go there again
Even though I should move on, I still reminisce
Everything I do is closer to a miss than a hit
So every time I try I wonder why I'm back at it again
I wonder where it went, should I have payed attention
Devise the signs of lies to myself I shouldn't mention
That maybe I'm not depressed and this is just a phase
But I think I've come too far for far too many days
For this to just simply fade away
No matter how far I run, I can never escape
The darkness follows me everywhere
One day it might take me away
Need to find it, before I get blinded
By the hopelessness, and the failures that I'm constantly reminded
I did everything I thought that I could
Everything I thought that I should, but it no longer helped
And no matter how hard you try, you can never say you feel me
Without ever knowing how I actually felt

[Hook]
Tell me what is that you're looking for
I just need to know why you sound so low