Scatterbrained Atheists - How the world ends, Part III [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

When The world is ending, don’t want to feel a thing
This is how the world ends, don’t want to think a thing
When my world is ending, can’t stop remembering
This is how the world ends, Can’t stop obsessing
When my world is ending, I’m sorry for everything
When my world is ending ending and that’s ok with me

When you were young

I remember when I was 17, and wanting nothing to do but site and watch while my whist bleed and my hands, I wanted to be dead
When I was young, You never showed me, how to be, I never knew what it was like to have a family
I remember when I was 15 and saw my first girlfriend cheating on me with my best friend while I slept on the floor and she on the bed
000 13 and not wanting to feel anything, nobody knew me, no body knew the pain
The only weirdo in my neighborhood, that understood the way the forces works, beyond the socials confines of an adolescent world

I remembering when
I was 12 and moving
Away from everything
I knew and loved
At the same time
Left abandoned
I remember feeling that dark sinking feeling, day out and day in
Wanting the world to end
When no one knew you or cared
If you were ever there

When I turned to 11, I stopped dreaming of heaven
I knew that there was no place that I could go and feel ok
No matter what you said it didn’t change the things you did when we were kids
I fucking hate you forever for that shit

I remember when I was 8 and no one could relate to a lost boy
In a cold world
All I need was for someone to say the right words

When I was 6, I remember pretending to be 0sick so I could stay home
And when I was there alone I used to fantasize about the day I died
Cause At your funeral
Everyone has to show
How much they loved you
How much they miss you
But they couldn’t do that for you
When you were alive that’s why you try
To kill myself when I was 4 years old
I locked myself inside the car until I couldn’t breathes no more
I wanted the sun to burn out my brain
I wanted them all to know my pain
I wanted them to know how much it hurt for me to be disregarded by my family
I wanted to leave to prove a point
I wanted to leave to live out that dream
I wanted to leave to prove that I’m free

3 years old, not knowing where to go, no one around me, left my mind starving. i
I remember wondering, what life would be like if I could do anything , but my whole life
I was told I was nothing
Couldn’t do anything, now look at me
I’m farther than you could ever be
I keep thinking, I keep learning
When You gave up, when we were children
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This was a way for me to get back at you, to teach all of you a lesson about how you treat your children, I’m lucky I made it to 11