Sha Stimuli - I Tried [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Chorus]:
We always had a choice
At least we think we do
I've always tried so hard
I thought this to be true

[Verse One]:
First off can I tell you?
I got love for you
But there's reasons I'm holdin' back
So I decided to tell you
Why it's hard for me
To show the love, girl I owe you that
It's been awhile since I've known you
And what we go through
It's kinda tough to expose in raps
And I get scared when I hold you
I'm in a cold mood
I think it's time you were told the facts
Cause you think that it's you when you start complainin'
And sayin' this thing that we got is so drainin'
You really wanna take my last name and have a child with my eyes
And you tired of waitin'
The truth is
You are not to blame
Cause a few years back, I was so ashamed
I got caught up with a lady that had tried to change me
And she did that shit and I miss that bitch
Damn

[Chorus]:
We always had a choice
At least we think we do
I've always tried so hard
I thought this to be true

[Verse Two]:
We were three years in
She had a kid
The father of the child had to do a little bid
I was step daddy and for me that was big
Cause I had to step up my game for us to live
I mean I was in it
I was makin' dinner
Didn't have a job so I played babysitter
Faithful as hell there was no playin' with her
Shit was fuckin deep girl, I was rubbin' feet
I was cleanin' on the weekend, I was readin' to her son
No cheatin', no beefin', I thought that she was the one
I don't know if baby father was the nigga that she loved
I don't even know what happened but I pray to God above
That's she's okay
She might have thought that I was pimpin'
I wasn't even rappin', I got me a job temping
Kinda in the streets, the money was so tempting
But when she left me my life became empty

[Chorus]:
We always had a choice
At least we think we do
I've always tried so hard
I thought this to be true

[Verse Three]:
It could've been the fact that I couldn't go half on the rent
Or maybe cause I quit after days bein' a temp
Or maybe it was too much time that I spent
With her kid and she hated the life that I represent
It could've been that dude came home I never know
But if she wasn't happy she hardly let it show
I was movin' green, I wasn't fuckin' with snow
But now I see rain, well maybe she was a hoe
No she wasn't
She was cool with my mother
We would laugh together, cry together, lay up under covers
I went away for some days, came home to discover
That she moved out, switched e-mails and changed numbers
And you
You ask, you wonder
Why when it comes to love that I'm a fronter
Girl I tried and I came out a punk, a chump
A sissy, a pussy, my ass got dumped for nothin' man

[Chorus]:
We always had a choice
At least we think we do
I've always tried so hard
I thought this to be true