Speech Debelle - Searching [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[Verse 1]
2 a.m. in my hostel bed, my eyes them red, my belly ain't fed
I got butter but I ain't got bread and I'm smoking on my last cigarette
I ain't got creds I can't make calls, got no papers I got no jewels
Got debts up to my eyeballs who made these rules, it's a catch 22
Christmas soon come and I got no funds but what's Christmas if you ain't at mums
What I'm spose to do sit here and wait for this little JSA. No blasted way
I'm a call G and get a food on conceit or use my giro and by a 16th
Now that's small time but I got to make p's, I'm so hungry man I just gotta eat and 2 a certain degree
I'm intrigued by these streets, they say misery loves company and I'm so comfy I could fall asleep but I can't do that
I'm surrounded by cats, filthy cats sitting in steps with cat size rats
Yep it's a fact I'm truly lost now, will I end up where I can't be found

[Hook]
When life hits you with issues, Makes you wanna cry and wet tissues
Wondering who's really with you, what you gonna do
When it gets a dramatic, and its over the top like bad acting
Sinking ship and you're the captain, What you gonna do

[Verse 2]
All this abusing becoming amusing, the harsh reality becoming alluring
The life I'm choosing won't stop moving and I'm refusing any kind of curing
Cause see right now this papers moving and to be honest this papers ruling
If God say's it's the demon I believe him, cause what I'm doing for him you could call appalling
But there no such things as half way crook, so I pay cash and got my seat book
As i approach the peer i got no fear
Men women and especially gays
I'm getting more lost by the day, the deeper I go the harder to find my way
I know the blair witch I seen her yesterday, she collapsed naked on the bed with a needle in her crotches
And the baby sniffles as he watches, but that ain't nothing new
He's always sniffling, always got a cold, yea that's what crack'l do
Peek a boo, I seen you, doing what your people's don't know you do
But neither does mind and right now I'm not sure I mind cause right now I don't get my mind

[Hook]
When life hits you with issues, makes you wanna cry and wet tissues
Wondering who's really with you, what you gonna do
When it gets all dramatic, and its over the top like bad acting
Sinking ship and you're the captain, what you gonna do

What you gonna do when things
Get on top just like a swing
And you tired of arguing, saying the same things
What you gonna do when things
Get on top just like a swing
And you tired of arguing, saying the same things

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