Terrell - How You Want It [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

-Verse 1-
Death is weighing on my shoulders, I got life in my hand
At times I touch the sky and its alright when I land
I been survived the battle what's the point in fighting a man
I swear I been through more than what I can withstand
Road to riches and fame, I'm steady crowded by the mist
But I can walk a thousand miles as long as the shoe fits
Surrounding myself with thoughts of trying to call it quits
I'm balling like I'm the shit, and its all cause I got a hit
And the talking it never ends, but as long as I can pretend
That I got the world in my hand, they'll never know what's the plan
But I'm suffering once again, and I lose my attention span
If this all pays off, then my shows they will attend
But I can't comprehend, the reason I see my own songs as a threat
When did my dream become a nightmare that I'd struggle to forget
Well damn it I can't recall, but I'm frozen inside these walls
No more running towards the light as I'm watching the darkness fall
-Hook-
Tell me how you want it
Tell me that you with it
Tell me how you want it
And that's the way you'll get it
Aw yeah
Tell me how you want it
Tell me that you with it
Tell me how you want it
And that's the way you'll get it
Aw yeah

-Verse 2-
I need a way of proving them wrong
I built the fire up just so it could move in a song
The first moment I touched a pen it started cruising along
I don't get it is this the type of life that I'm meant for
Careless in the beginning, now what I fight for
What I spent my life doing, attempt to take to the top
Pretending not to care whether I make it or not
But its all lies, I do care and I can't hide it
There's a demon locked away honestly I can't fight it
Missing out on excitement, silver light, can't find it
I hope they follow on with the brilliant theory that I'll provide em
When my album drop I'm hoping the lyrics just get recited
So they can know all that I've been through, know none of this is simple
The way that they tend see it, I'm killing these instrumentals
Hoping I become a symbol instead of as worthless as a thimble
Released so many songs this past year so I could earn up my credentials
But tell me if its worth it, just tell me if its worth it
Just build my confidence so I know what I do it perfect
I said tell me if its worth it, just tell me if its worth it
Tell me if I got a chance or is what I write just worthless

-Hook-
Tell me how you want it
Tell me that you with it
Tell me how you want it
And that's the way you'll get it
Aw yeah
Tell me how you want it
Tell me that you with it
Tell me how you want it
And that's the way you'll get it
Aw yeah

-Verse 3-
Afflicted to live a curse, but I can't say this is the first
With a dead beat father who only made the pain feel worse
Who am I to blame him, maybe I should blame myself
I was told more than once I shouldn't but it can't be helped
I'm just tryna give you me, not a duplicate copy
The originals where its at, but still my memories haunt me
And taunt me, to do something that I'll just regret
But he's breaking every promise, did he think twice yet
Maybe he didn't, so where's my mirror on the wall
The one that I can go to whenever I start to ball
I can't take a step forward until I learn to crawl
Tryna move on but I just can't so I just learned to fall
Damn, how can it all still get to me
Putting myself in misery as I think of my history
How can it all still get to me
Putting myself in misery as I think of my history