Top Flight - Does It End [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

Verse 1 [Top Flight]
Ever since my head on collision
My head’s been filled with visions
Some good, some evil
It's like a mix of Golem and Smeagol
Most people don’t know where I'm coming from
Those people don't know what I'm running from
See my mind runs more then a track star
The only time it stops, is when I rap bars
But honestly, I’ve had enough this
I wanna pull it, and put a bullet in my esophagus
Though if I do, I know its a mistake
So I won't fall through there's to much at stake
But, I can't lie, suicide's been a thought
Over my past thank God I've been taught
“Never back down even when it seems hopeless”
“Always hold on even when it seems ropeless”
There's no dosage of medicine
That keeps these thoughts from embedding in
Believe me I've I tried, believed me I've lied
A smile doesn’t mean I’m not bleeding inside
Why can’t I figure out how to make the pain numb?
Why can’t I figure out where it came from?
Lord I know I'm going through this for a reason
So I'm tryna’ stay warm in this world that is freezing
Seized in, since the day of my birth
I've had a fear of not reaching my worth
But I’m the only one keeping me from it
If I don't overcome it, then I'm probably gonna plummet
Forget that, I’m never gonna fall over
I’ll fight for what's right, until its all over
Cause I already know about the outcome
I just have to get to the X, no Malcolm
But how come I can't think or brainstorm?
On how to find the link out this brain storm
See, me and this demon are in the same form
But no matter what, I’ll never change for him
Lord why is this war so consecutive?
Why are my thoughts so competitive?
Why is my pain so repetitive?
And why is my brain the executive?
Man, can someone just show me where the exit is?
I can't stand this, I need to grow a leg for this
But I am this, So where's Krieg for this?
I just wanna fly free, where's Pegasus

Urgently, I need to disperse of these, thoughts that are cursed in me. 
Certainly they'll vanish, but when? and if they don't, does it end?