Tyler Tracey - Off My Chest [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

Verse 1:
See, I never thought I'd live this life
One minute I'm happy, the next I'm awake at night
Debating calling it all off and leaving for good
If I could stick with one emotion I would
But I can't seem to
Because I'm still haunted by the ghosts in my rearview
All my sins printed on me like a tattoo
And the lies and mistakes I can't go back and undo
I would move on but the past is becoming the present
And the people I love today won't ever forget
Not that I can blame them, I'm becoming unfit
If someone hurt me that way I'd probably never get over it
I know I wouldn't, I haven't forgiven my ex
The one who missed used me like some bubble wrapped objects
The one that got me only looking for hoes and emotionless sex
The sky is falling from the Heavens above
Is this Karma or God's tough love?
People can't erase you but they can sure hate you
People can't forget you but they can sure leave you
And people won't hurt you unless you give them a reason too
Acting stupid and foolish and now you're doing drugs again too
Your sister is scared for you, do you even have a fucking clue?
Of course you don't because the only person suffering is you
And you just expect them all to just love you?
Unconditionally like they never once hated you?
Blindly supporting you after all you put them through?
Maybe you should overdose
Take your own life, see how that goes
Then you can come back as a ghost
And see how your grave is a single black rose
From your mother because she blames herself
She wonders if there was a way she could've helped
And now you can be the reason for her deteriorating health
All because you were too fucking selfish to get outside help
Your brothers aren't even saying you're brothers anymore
They don't even fucking miss you anymore
In fact, they don't wanna be your fucking family anymore
And they were suppose to be the last ones to walk out the door
But you drove them all away, everyone, all of them
Every last person who helped you become a man but you never became a man
Every person you thanked in your songs and in your verses
Now how does it feel to be alone and completely worthless?
You fucking idiot, you could've had it all but you threw it all away
Because you built up this wall
Now you don't have anyone you can ever call
Because the refuse to let you take them down on your fall

Verse 2:
The fact that my sister doesn't talk to me anymore
Hurts a lot but I know I did this to her before
She would rather talk to that bitch who hates me
She had to make a choice and the choice wasn't me
But the fact is is I'd take a bullet to save that friend of her's
Because knowing that my sister was sad would be much worse
Than me taking the big one and laying in a hearse
And I'd die for anyone of my family members, blood or not
Because I owe it to them through the wars that they fought
With me and by my side, and I know I could've done better
So that's why I had to sit down and write this letter
Because I knew I had to sort my shit out, get shit off my chest
Yell at myself and get it all out
These voices in my head have been getting too loud
And I have to fix the problems with the people I can't live without
I saw a glimpse forward in my life and it's a lonely route
I can't erase my past but I need to work on the future
Because my chances are becoming less than fewer
So I'm sorry to everyone I hurt
I'm still figuring out how to live this life
I'm still figuring out how to make it right
I'm still figuring out how to be, alright

Tony Soprano Interlude:
Now I know what you're gonna say, "I would never do what he did". God bless, I hope not. But we are a family. And even in this fucked up day and age that means something. So we're gonna deal with this as a family. Together, no matter how it effects anybody. Personal safety wise, financially wise, whatever