XVNNIE - Are You Happy [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

(Verse 1)
Inside of me feels like a void, and I'm just so annoyed
Was it your plan to leave me so destroyed?
Cuz I'm missing my boy, but my boy ain't missing me
& I guess I'm starting to see, that it wasn't meant to be
Or was it just the wrong time?
Every morning I tell myself the same lie
That today he's gonna come back & everything will be alright
I've even been telling other niggas that I am not able to love
And they ask me why and I tell them it's cause I think I'm fucked up
So they can love me all they want, but I doubt I will care
They can know everything about me, but don't they know that I won't be there?
I shouldn't even be feeling like this
Wishing for a kiss, since I don't have any lean to wash over my lips
Or a Xan plus the lean to trip and have a good dream
A beautiful druggy, Drowning sadness in xannies
Why do you not love me?
Mind, soul & body, but mind over matter
Do you not care or does it just not matter?
Cause I get sadder and sadder
Tears covering the laughter that I should be having, but that shit ain't happening
Why do guys hurt good girls?
Why is it that when the heart hurts, the hurt kills?

(hook x2)
Like are you fucking happy now?
Are you fucking happy now?
You happy now? You happy now?
Are you fucking happy now?
Are you fucking happy...

(Verse 2)
Honestly, what is happening to me?
Honestly, will things ever get better?
Honestly, there's plenty fish in the sea
But what if I'm tiring of fishing?
Honestly, I cry subconsciously
And when I rhyme I rhyme unconsciously
Cuz all this shit is a dream and I don't know if waking up is right for me
And I'm doing all these drugs & hoping that I die to it
Honestly, I couldn't cry for him
He know all my favorite things, including my favorite chocolate
He know about my past & about the future we predicted
He know about my sadness, and about what that dick did
He know about the Xans and how I am addicted
He know about how I'm tripping all the time, even at school
But the saddest thing he know is that he'll never be you
He know he won't ever get my love, he won't ever be my man
He know he's not gonna be the one putting the ring on my hand
He know I'll never have his son, he know he'll never have his song
He know he couldn't be my one, he know it'll never work
He know he might could get a line, but never a full verse
He know he might could hit my line, but he'll never know where it hurt
And he know he could find where the Angels are, but he'll never find the area the demons lurk

(hook x2)

(Verse 3)
Now let's sip this lean until we can't feel what we feeling
And let's pop these xans so I can speed up the healing
And let's pretend we see all of our thoughts on the ceiling
While we lay here on the carpet, awake but we're dreaming
And I'm living a nightmare, awake and I'm screaming
But you're living in happiness, that smile still beaming
Waiting for when it doesn't end in August
And when September doesn't make me go thru all this
All over again in October, birthday wishes to be happy
"You should be able to spend November without your voice sounding raspy
And spend December with the fam instead of not being chatty
Share your lyrics with the world and stop fucking drafting
Maybe you'll get noticed, maybe good shit will happen!"
Maybe good shit will happen..
Maybe good shit will happen

(hook x2)