XVNNIE - Used 2do Drugz [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

[verse 1]
Uhhh...
I used to do drugs
I still do.. but uhhh.. I used to, too
Mitch, I'm just like you, but my drank purp & my weed is blue
Blue dream, in touch with the ground
I want a flower crown
3 eyes so I'm seeing all around
Or is that just Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds dance-dancing on a cloud
Trying not to wear my feelings on the sleeves of my sweater, but I get lost in the thought
Whenever I'm trying my hardest to heal the pain in my heart
Is when I find myself pulling out the blade and cutting in the dark
Like lava, I'm flowing, uh
I understand. I see. I know it
Have you ever cried without knowing?
Cause I was just on Tumblr & realized my face was a boat rowing
In the ocean, my eyes created, in the open
Closing, sending droplets, staining
Like juice on the carpets
Ugh
I ain't really into all that, I don't know what this is
I miss you right now, I miss when I was your misses
I miss when you used to listen
But now I'm in love with the pills in my system
And I always hope & pray that I don't awake
And when I do, I end up being pissed all day
I always talk to my friends in case I disappear
Cause I know for sure one day I won't be here
Cause sometimes I look at the scars and they saying "make more."
But my head is saying "don't do it, baby, look forward!"
And you could poptart, you could popcorn
But I'll pop pills, bet it's more than four
Bet you say I'll die if I take anymore
But I could come home & throw up
Cough out some blood, drop weight
& still be able to show up the next day
When they ask me if I'm fine
And I'm like, "yeah, I'm alright."
I hate how they can see it my eyes
They can hear it in my voice
They can tell they are some lies
But they know it was my choice
Yo
I hate being sad, I hate being lonely
I got a few close friends, the others don't know me
My hair may be pink, but my life is black & white, snowy, I guess I'm Dopey
And I'm tired all the time
But blood on a white blanket
Is pretty, Lord, what am I thinking?
Why do I do this to myself when I know I can't sleep in
Hating when the tears stream so I can't even see shit
But the lines form so perfect, Jesus
And uhh I made this rap from the stuff in my Twitter drafts
But you know I..
Uhhh...
I used to do drugs
I still do.. but uhhh.. I used to, too