Zoltan Nebula - Holdin' My Own [tekst, tłumaczenie i interpretacja piosenki]

Yeah I'm a skinny white dude, listening to Night Moves
Don't eat the right food, But I stay away from drive-thrus
I might move, to a place far away
But I'll try to do my best to remain the same
Or at least remain sane, I've gotta maintain
My thought and stop wasting it on mainframes
Till then I'll just sit here and write this rhyme
Reminiscing and traveling with right time
Looking back on my life, I'm pretty impressed
I made it through the times that I was certain of death
I've traveled out East, traveled out West
And I'm doin' my best to relieve all my stress
But some days I can't out of bed
And some days I wish I woke up dead
Some days I wanna put a hole in my head
And cover the sheets in a whole lot of red
But, I still get up, soldier on each day
Even if it is with a fake smile on each face
Fake or not, man, it's still a smile
And first or last, well, it's still a mile

[Chorus]
No matter what I've done, no matter what I do
The only thing I can do in life is try to stay true
Doesn't matter if you throw me a bone
You can't own my zone, I'm still holdin' my own

I went through hell, then went back a few times
And the only thing I got was just a few rhymes
Took a wrong turn when I missed a few signs
But it made me strong like I sniffed a few lines
Started therapy around the age of 7
That age told my mom I wanna be in heaven
Been on over 24 prescriptions
Half the time my brain got a notice for eviction
Goin' through packs of gravol a week
Keeps the nausea at bay but it's still hard to sleep
I try not to complain about my shitty health
Cause after all it's just the cards that I've been dealt
But O.C.D. has really got the best of me
Michale Graves reference, but it's a shitty recipe
I try not to let it get to me
But it's hard when your chemistry's a steadily enemy
Purelling my hands over 30 times a day
Rituals that keep the anxiety at bay
But hey!! it's okay!!
Cause you know I'm gonna see a brighter day

[Chorus]

Lost quite a few friends and you know that was hard
Yeah they left heart-prints, but they also left scars
Been to the hospital more than a handful
I swear sometimes my heads harder than an anvil
I was arrested five or six times
Passed the time with a dude spittin' sick rhymes
Been to youth jails, but only two week bids
Thought I was tough, but I was too weak kid
It was a blessing though, got me on the right track
After my trial I said I'll never be right back
Off to the psyche ward, what an experience
Seeing their mistreatment made me fight serious
So here I am, just an average man
I'm not doing the best but I'm doing the best I can
Never really had a grand life plan
I was just so content with collecting beer cans

[Chorus]

These last few years made me shed a few tears
And my body won't let me drink 22 beers
I've spent them in solitude and sobriety
Driving me crazy, plus I always fuckin' lie to me
But I still have hope of better days
So death if you're listening, you better wait
You better stand outside like some lemonade
And let me wrap this life up like some cellophane
That's right guys, I'm living till I die
I hope the same thing is something you decide
People world wide, let's go outside
Buckle up, get ready for the ride
So if you're down to drive till we're out of gas
Then please feel free to help me sing this track
And If I can go through all of this shit
And still stand strong after swallowin' piss
Then you can too, you're not alone
You have the power to hold your own!!

(Sing it all together now)
[Chorus]
No matter what we've done, no matter what we do
The only thing we can do in life is stay true
Doesn't matter if you throw us a bone
You can't own our zone, we're still holdin' our own

(I love you guys. Stay strong)